Category Archives: Running

An Issue I can't run away from

For a few months now, I’ve been dealing with a strange issue.  It has taken a backseat to my kids and JD’s weird neuro whatever that has been going on, so I haven’t really dealt with it.  It seems to be getting worse, so I’m writing about it.  I don’t know why, but it feels good to acknowledge it.

Every once in awhile my stomach gets rock hard, and not in a good way.  So completely bloated and then I get intense, way-worse-than-labor-contractions stomach cramps.  My intestines hate me.  Other things happen too, but I won’t go into the gory details.  Basically, it isn’t good, and I feel godawful sick for the better part of a day or two.  But it definitely isn’t some sort of virus, and it has been recurring at least once a week for months.  Getting worse.

I haven’t been able to track down the culprit, I’m thinking that it probably isn’t just one thing.  That it isn’t necessarily a certain food, but something wrong with me that reacting to a group of foods.  The best I felt was when we did the Whole30 plan for about three weeks.  We didn’t make it to the end, and we didn’t switch to eating paleo.  Instead, we went back to eating horribly because it is so much cheaper.  Not nutritionally cheaper.  I think we got really frustrated, because it’s one thing to buy more produce and to not buy processed foods.  It’s a whole nother thing to replace flour with coconut and almond flours, to only use raw honey and real syrup as sweeteners in baking, and to eat a lot more meat and produce, taking out grains, beans, dairy, sugar, yada yada.  But I know that is what I need to do.  I’m at a point where I just don’t know how to do it all.  I can never think of a good recipe, especially that my kids will eat.  I would love to get them off gluten and processed foods as well and make a lot more fun stuff together.  But it is SO expensive to bake things!

Then I get really frustrated and I give up.  But then I feel like I have today, which I had popcorn and a few cookies last night….not sure what it was.  I had a lot of sugar over Thanksgiving, and never had an issue.  I even made a delectable salted caramel apple pie that was amazing, and way too sweet.  Nothing really happened to me.  Maybe a day of discomfort, but nothing like it usually is.  The thing is, I could go to a doctor, and they could diagnose me with something weird like irritable bowel syndrome, Crohn’s, celiac disease, or nothing at all….and the result would be the same.  I don’t want medicine.  I want to fix me with food because I am 100% positive that would work.  Wish my health insurance would pay for it!

Also, I ran a couple weeks ago, but haven’t since.  My ankle felt pretty good, but I almost twisted it AGAIN and I think my shoes must be out for me!  We don’t really live in the best neighborhood, and JD has been gone during all the daylight hours, so I don’t really have a chance to run right now.  I’m sure that would probably help too.  It’s frustrating to want so desperately to do things differently, and not have the resources and ability to do it.  I’m having one of THOSE days.

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A planned day of epic fails (and other random life happenings).

What is going on today.

Today is JD’s and my nine year anniversary, and we have decided to completely indulge in the crappiest of food.  Two reasons for this.  1) to get it out of our system…a last hoorah of sorts.  2) to kind of make ourselves feel the food.  To feel that it is not good for our bodies and that it doesn’t make us feel well.  We are having a favorite dinner casserole from the past, we had pizza for lunch.  Pepperoni with tons of cheese.  Yum.  Cinnamon roll with coffee for breakfast…probably my favorite part!  And cookies for dessert tonight.  I’m a huge fan of cookies.  I really love them.  I love packaged cookies, bakery cookies, making cookies.  When I make them they are dairy free, sometimes egg free, and made with much less sugar and whole wheat flour.  Of course, none of that will be happening after this weekend.  Monday we are starting the Whole30 program, and we are very committed to being successful with it.  Might be blogging a lot more to vent about it…I KNOW it is going to be very hard for me.  I am the worst one of our family….so addicted to sugar.  It happened slowly, from around June or July till now.  But I just binge on it sometimes.

I can probably just blame everything on a condition.

I also have found out that a condition of mine has a symptom of feeling hungry all the time, no matter how much you eat.  This happens to me about one week a month.  And no, this isn’t normal pms or something.  I have poly-cystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) and it affects hormones and insulin production.  I’ve also been diagnosed with insulin resistance in the past.  I was on medication when I had C, and since then I haven’t needed any.  And I don’t want any.  But I know that if I continue my eating habits, I could get back into feeling lethargic, fatigued, hungry all the time, and depressed.  I can control it with my lifestyle, and I don’t want to be on diabetic medication just to control it if it isn’t actually necessary.  I definitely don’t want to get diabetes.  Just another motivating factor here!

On the running front.

Running and eating well put me back into a good healthy cycle, I could feel the difference it made.  Since I fell on my butt again last week, I can’t run right now, and it is so frustrating.  But at the same time, it gives me a chance to just focus on healthy eating first and foremost, and I should get the chance to get back into running before winter hits.  I’m hoping I either somehow love running in the cold (which I don’t think is good for asthma but if I am in shape it might not be an issue?) or can find an indoor track in Omaha somewhere to run through the winter.  I don’t want to stop and wait.  How frustrating!  JD did say that he used to have a rowing machine…hoping that is still around.  I could stand to do that instead of run if I had to.  And, just throwing it out there, the best thing of all would be to swim…..oh I wish I could afford the cost and the time it takes to swim everyday.  I love it so much.  But alas, you do what you can with what you have.

T minus 3 days and counting….

This weekend we are going camping.  Partly as a celebration of our anniversary and because we had the chance to get away from the kids, and partly because camping is awesome.  A lot of my cousins will be there and we always have a lot of fun.  My family is fabulous.  So that is one of the reasons we are waiting until Monday to start our thirty days of awesome/hellish eating fun times.  Our last hoorah will include probably alcohol, awesome camp food, and smores galore.  And just so you know, we aren’t doing this to lose weight, although we are looking forward to that side effect.  We want to be healthy.  With our random health issues, we truly believe that nutrition is the key to being healthy in most situations, and that we have that completely in our control.  Check out HAES for more on that.  I’ll go into that more sometime, probably as we get into the program, because I will need to remind myself (ha) and it is really good information for, you know, human kind.

 

It happened again. I swear I’m not this lame usually.

I totally sprained my ankle again yesterday.  I am such a klutz.  I was just getting into running again, and BAM.  I think I need new shoes or something.  This time I was holding my son and misstepped off of the front porch, a cement step down.  It hurt.  So I won’t be running for awhile, and am already feeling the restlessness set in.  Last time it took two months to heal and I ran the 5k MudRun on it even though it wasn’t totally better.  And I think it helped it get stronger, running on it.  But it also hurt.  So I guess I’m in the waiting game.  I was totally looking forward to a zombie run too.  😦  Probably won’t be able to do that.  On another note, I am going to do the Whole30 program’s 30 day challenge.  Looking forward to that!  I’m finding that unless I am challenging myself and telling people about it who can keep me accountable, I totally and epically fail consistently.  So I’m telling the internet.  I’m writing about that at Forgetti Spaghetti so head over there for more details because I’m not going to talk about it much here.  This is my special place, where I get weird and poetic and long-winded.  

Something.

Why is it that every time I am excited for a run, I stub my toe so badly that I think it could be broken?  This happens a lot.  Ouch, ouch, ouch…I think.  That hurts on both a physical and a metaphorical level.

Sabotage.  My own body is out to get me.  Also, I tend to do this to myself.  In different aspects of life.  I haven’t felt the desire to run as much lately….probably because it’s like beyond hot outside.  Like…Africa hot.  I hate the heat, and even more so I want to kill all the humidities.  Kill the water vapor.  Make it die.  Slow to a stop and leave me alone.

Yeah….my point is I am not that motivated to step outside and instantly be drenched before I even start working out.  Tomorrow I am running around 9:30am with a friend.  Usually I go really early to beat the heat and start my day with the run, but lately, that is never.  Because it is hot all night long, the lows never get lower than 73 F and I just sit here in a daze and endure it until September.  Or October.   And I digress from digressing…..

I need to work on my runner’s attitude.  I think runners are usually all like, “yeah, I just ran in -20 degree F weather and I was all like, yeah this is awesome.”  They run in anything, and get some sort of sick and twisted joy out of it.

I do get something awesome out of running.  I have these moments where I feel so in community with the other people out exercising and nature just loves me.  It’s pretty kickin’.  Also I listen to music, so that becomes some sort of trippy experience.  Which I love.

(and I think that is the real secret about running….you get high AND healthy at the same time…thank you God)

I’m not sure where I was going with this post.  I just wanted to write something because I stubbed my toe and it really really hurt.

DIY >> Make Your Own Workout Shirt

I found this on Pinterest recently:

It’s from Rabbit Food for My Bunny Teeth (which is a pretty cool website) and I just had to try it.  I’ve been trying to figure out what on EARTH to wear while running.  I can’t wear those cool running tanks or shirts that are all “dry-fit-wick-away-your-sweat-and-such-pretty-colors” because they very much accentuate the flab.  It’s just not comfortable.  Not there yet.  But big old baggy t-shirts are annoying.  As are the farmer’s tan I’m getting on my arms.  So I was super stoked to come across this!  Since Jon and I have both been losing weight, we have a lot of t-shirts we can destroy in attempts to make something better of them.  YAY!

The website said to use a large shirt, so I used one of Jon’s too-big t-shirts.  It’s still too big.  My first attempt at this turned out usable and ok…but I’m not gonna post pics.  Maybe next time.  You can check out the above pic and the website if you want more info on the how-to.  Let’s just say it’s a great idea, and I wouldn’t use a perfectly fitting shirt, definitely go a little bigger….but don’t go too big.  I look redonkulous in it.  And yet I still wear it.  Bahaha!  Because I don’t care that much!  Comfort is key when running for me.  So I will attempt this again if my kids ever nap at the same time again and maybe if it turns out better, I’ll take some pics too.   In the meantime, it’s a great way to use a t-shirt that you don’t use anyway!

I Am Free To Run

This is just a post to update you on my journey to being healthy.  I post regularly on my personal blog about running and everything else I think about and do, but I thought a general “what’s up” post was in order here.

In January, we made the choice to start eating like our son.  To cut out soy and dairy and processed foods.  We have cut out almost all processed foods, except crackers.  We eat back to nature whole grain crackers, so they are pretty good and not full of fillers.  We don’t eat much soy, except when we use soy sauce in cooking.  We’ve done very well there.  The dairy has been a much bigger struggle.   My daughter gets most of her protein from dairy.  She is obsessed with yogurt and cottage cheese.  Which I am ok with.  I wish we could always afford to get organic everything, but we can’t.  That is something that is a major goal of mine over the rest of the year…to make that a higher priority.  I also have been eating greek yogurt after runs.  It makes me feel much better, like I recover faster from my run.

I knew that I needed to do something on top of all this eating well, and that was to exercise.  This is the biggest step I have ever taken in my life.  I have NEVER exercised.  I played sports in high school, so I guess there was some exercising going on there.  I tried swimming while at college, which I did here and there.  But I have never made the choice to regularly do anything that resembles exercise.  I hated it.  But being in the house most of the time with the kids as a stay and work at home mom, I needed some time to myself.  I  needed something that wouldn’t take an entire morning, that was fast and cheap.  Since I don’t have a bike, the only thing I could do was run.  I got some running shoes and just started to do it.  I am now almost finished with week 5 of the Couch to 5K program.  I have already run in a race even!  forgetti spaghetti

A 3k…..I finished in just under 20 minutes.  (btw-I have no idea why I look super-pissed in that picture.  I’m thinking I must’ve been going for stoic…?)  Not the greatest…I was just happy I finished before the 10K runners started to finish!  I think I was in like 250th place or something, haha!  But who cares!  I did that over a week ago, and I was no where close to actually running almost 2 miles in my training.  It’s important for me to have goals and run in races, otherwise I know I’ll get bored.  I’m going to do two 5K’s in August.  I should be able to run an entire 5K by then without walking.  Today will be my first 2 mile run without walking in my training.

What’s the point of all this?  Well, I always hated to run.  HATED it.  With a passion.  I mean…I don’t know if you get it….I couldn’t stand watching people run.  I was jealous beyond belief that they had a desire to do something like that.  That they could.  And that they did it every day, looking so effortless….it wasn’t fair and I hated it.  When I finally decided to do it, it was kind of awful.  I could barely make it 30 seconds of running without feeling like I was seriously going to die.  It wasn’t even my asthma that was holding me back.  It was me.  Not only not wanting to push myself, but a kind of self-sabatage.  Where I just didn’t want to do something for me, that could benefit me.  I do this sometimes in my life….I think a lot of people do.  This is one of the first times in my life that I have pushed through that, ignored the desire to stop, to give up, and it has given me some incredible benefits.  When I start my day with a run, I feel so energetic, happier, and I get to have over a half an hour to myself in the morning.  I listen to music, I take in my surroundings, and I let my mind drift into deep thoughts.  It’s an amazing thing running gives you that I never knew about.  It clears your mind, and your body.  And speaking of body, some awesome things have happened there too!  Since the end of January, I have lost 30 pounds!  My body has regulated itself, I haven’t gotten sick, even when I’ve felt a cold coming on.  I have become a much healthier version of myself, and I am only part of the way there.

Running is just one more example of how I am conquering my world.